Haiz..today is 18 of Feb 2008..that means that i left with 3 more days to my court day..i don't know why but i all of a sudden just feel so scared to go back..the days just pass so fast how i wish i could control the time..so that i could stop the time for now and spend the time with the people i love the most till i am happy..sad that i can't..but for now i can just do nothing and count down the days for now i guess..and the the other thing is to pray to GOD and that's all..i just don't know but for the past few days i have been quarreling with her..i just don't know why i guess is because my mood and her mood no good i guess.. i fell so angry is because of the sister for all the things she done to her i just feel like slapping the sister but i couldn't because is her sister i just pray that one day GOD will bless me and let me be the prince and save her out of all the troubles and save her from everything or should i say all the hardship and be like what i usually read in the fairy tales having happily endings...like that i will be very happy without having any worries and troubles...but for the time being i just want to walk finish through my this case 1st and see what's the sentence then see how..pray hard that it will be a lighter sentence..so that i still have time for the people who care for me and for the people i love...GOD please save me..i really hit onto this wall real hard and i know what i have done wrong..i am repenting and praying for your forgiveness..please save me my father in heaven..for i am your son and you who say that you won't neglect me..i trust you that you will save me..